Poems, Thoughts

(i’m sorry)

i never pondered about why
your eyes always drooped low
ringed with dark circles, wrinkles that cut deep into
your skin like agony slit your heart in blades,
i question the reason for your submissiveness
you don’t seem any different from years before,
but i learnt you hid things
from me so i can soar to where i am now
at a stage where everything is crystal clear
we were all never happy,
because we grip onto short-lived happiness
or search happiness in the wrong places
because you chose this life out of obligation
full of compromises with effects
that seep into my life now,
i ask myself why i have to face this
if only you made a stronger stand
against what i have now learnt to avoid
for the rest of my life
but i can’t blame you
because you weren’t taught
to be fierce enough
and make a decision
to teach the misogynists
how to treat a woman

but i shall take the lead today.

— Parveen Maghera